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I think someone asked how a person can hide the fact that they have an eating disorder.
One way was mentioned by Ginger, who bravely admitted to having a disorder. Other things I know girls to have done was to "push" food around to give the illusion that you are eating, when in fact you are not. Perhaps eating a couple bites, push the food around, then be "full." THen go and purge. Remember, though, that every meal you eat isn't in the company of thousands of people all the time. I know that in some families (Black) it is. Every meal is a friggin' feast!
I am interested in this topic because my background is dance. Not just any dance but I was a ballerina for 21 years of my life until I had my son. Again, the struggle to have an identity being the ONLY Black in an entire company was a bit frustrating. Many of the white girls who began to fill out at the age of like 10, would survive ona diet of a yogurt and MAYBE some juice. I was never a big girl so I ate what I wanted. When I began to fill out at the age of 16, I, too, began to eat very little to stay thin. I can agree that if you are living a certain lifestyle, say that of a dancer, it becomes the norm for people not to eat. I would never consider myself to have had an eating disorder. I would also probably accuse the other girls of having one, oddly enough.
This is an interesting topic to me because I am considered to be "thin" to may of my friends and Sorors. I am a vegan and exercise religiously. However, I am 5'8" and weigh 125 lbs. One of my prophytes, who USED to weigh about the same now weighs about 280 and is about 5'6."
It's difficult to get over because we are all subject to the brainwash that dictates the standard of beauty. Hell, even as Black women, the Black women who are deemed beautiful are really small. Notice that they are reither really small or hella big! Not like, average size.
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