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Originally posted by IheartMATT806
I miss my family and my boyfriend and I know that I am happiest when I am with them. I just dont know what to do...stay here and make everyone around me happy or go home and be happy?! I feel like I cant please everyone when deep down I need to please myself. 
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I think that everybody goes through this after going away to school. I don't really know what to tell you, but I went through something similar, although it was my first year of college. After my parents drove away and I was sitting alone in my dorm room, I freaked. I ended up calling home quite often during the first few weeks, crying, miserable, wanting to just leave and go home.
The thing is, I didn't go home. I can't say if I was as unhappy as you are now, but things got better for me and I ended up staying at my school for four years and graduating, and I'm really glad that I did it. I went to a school where I knew nobody and I look back on it as being a really amazing experience where I made my own life all by myself.
My advice to you would be this -- see a counselor and try to stick it out for a semester. If you're still miserable at the end, even after talking to someone and maybe getting medication (I've taken zoloft for panic attacks and it worked really well for me), then think about leaving. I think that you'll grow a lot by trying to work through this, and if it doesn't work at least you'll know that you tried and didn't make a hasty decision which is what I'm afraid you're going to do now.
Leaving home is always hard, but you're going to have to do it someday.