I am so very sorry to hear this. But hold your head high! You gave it a shot as a junior at a very competitive campus. We all admire you! You have nothing to feel embarassed about.
I know it is hard to imagine considering COB, but if it is an option, I urge you to check it out if you feel you still might enjoy Greek life. Many, many wonderful women join GLOs through COB.
COB is a great option for both sides -- it allows for a slower pace in a more relaxed setting. It's
still a mutal selection process -- not pity in any way. Many times during formal recruitment, chapters simply don't have the time to get to know every woman and, alas,
gems are sometimes lost!
COB gives both the chapter and the potential new member a second chance.
No matter what you decide, we all wish you the very best!