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Originally posted by Ideal08
There is this dude I went to college with. We are good friends. Have been for the past 10 years. I got it bad for ol' dude.  Always have. The timing has always been off. He was single while I was in a relationship and vice versa. Now, we are both single, but I treasure our friendship so much. So confusing. And I'm scurred to even HINT at the idea of making it more. Lawd. I've never been scurred of men in this way. But I am with him. Anyway... dude called me last night at 1 in the morning while my sick behind was out at the club. Then he called again today telling me he had something to tell me about. I just wonder what it is. My first thought was that he was gonna tell me he was gettin' married. But then again, I would know who it was, right? Lawd, I'm over here pressed, as my kids would say, lol.
Yeah, *sigh* I definitely got it bad for ol' dude. Flaws and all! 
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I am going through old threads and whatnot. I just have to say, wtf was I trippin' on that I thought he was gon' tell me he was gettin' married???? LMAO That is so funny to me in hindsight. At any rate, I still got it bad, lol. But I'm not scurred anymore. I told him ALMOST everything. *keeping my fingers crossed* I'm a little nervous; this is the first time I've felt vulnerable in a long, long time. I don't like the feeling too much, but I had to say something, cuz he was being just as much of a punk. Funny how history repeats itself, because we have already been down this road, only that was almost 11 years ago (time is really flying). My mind is all jumbled over this, and I didn't really know who to tell. You know how you want to talk to people, but you think they might get tired of hearing what you are talking about? That's how I feel right now, so I came to tell y'all instead, lol. And I know I got it bad, because I have been re-reading old journal entries from freshman year of college. There was a lot of stuff I'd forgotten. *sigh* I feel so nostalgic.
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It's bittersweet.