Beloved De6:
Since you are young and many of us here are over the age of 30 and pay mortgages well over the $100,000 dollar range, then maybe God is trying to tell you something when you decided to post something as serious as you did on such a public forum.
Sweetheart, it says in the Bible about the men and the talents and the one who buried his... Well, that would be the one I would follow if I were in your situation.
Many of us here on the forum and I think I can speak to most of the 30+ year olds and definitely most of my Sorors, know what hard financial times look like. We have children ourselves, we have husbands and significant others, we have car payments out the yin yang and we have tax payment like you cannot believe!
But there are my Sorors here many of them CPA and Financial Advisors that watch this board on their free time. I definitely believe that they can somehow direct you into some kind of path you seek...
Otherwise, why would God even prompt in your mind to post a topic such as this? What kind of help were you looking for? If you cannot take sound financial advice from those who have Ph.D.'s in Economics and Finance--moreover, those folks who are CFO's and CEO of Fortune 500 companies, then are you trying to bury the idea that God allowed into your head? Really, don't you think that if God did not what that thought to ask the folks on Greekchat about how to deal with finances and your family to occur into your head, He would have never allowed it to enter into your mind?
See you are extremely young and you are freaking out about things that maybe are beyond your capabilities to grasp right now. All you are seeing is what you want to do. To a 40 something year old parent or a 50-60 something year old grandparent, that is childish... They are not hearing you and let me tell you why:
YOU ARE NOT MAKING SENSE TO US!!! THE FOLKS ON GC!!! SO HOW DO YOU THINK YOU ARE MAKING SENSE TO YOUR FOLKS???
If your aunt is taking you to get your first little account, GREAT!!! Congratulations to your first start into REALITY--where things in life are NOT edited for content...
But with freedom, comes much responsibility... And you would want to be fiscally fit to handle the kinds of capabilities you haven't begun to fathom that you need...
So hey, pray to God for the strength to get you through your difficulties. However, when God is trying to tell you something, are really trying to listen?