[Katey Alpha Gam]

Hi girls. I am really bummed out right now. I met the guy of my dreams and now he's going to the Coast Guard. I met Beau a few months ago through mutual friends (a frmr sister and my best friend actually) and the second I met him I knew there was something about him that I really really saw. We hit it off immediately and we started seeing each other when we could (he worked at a camp, so he'd only be able to get down to the area to see me maybe once a week) then about a month into it, things are going well; but he gets transferred to a camp 3 1/2 hours away from here (he's a professional counselor actually. He's worked at Space Camp and stuff) and he was up there to teach survival training to kids (he'd take them canoeing for a few days and then they would backpack back up) well I was bummed but I thought that it was ok b/c it was just until August and then he'd come home and we'd get serious. Well, he called me a few weeks before he was supposed to come home and told me he was coming home to join the Coast Guard. My heart immediately sank. I mean I'm really proud of him b/c it's a great thing and he's going in to be an Aviation Survival Tech, which means he jumps out of helicopters into water to save ppl. A GREAT thing to do and something that fits him perfectly (he is the most altruistic, kind and loving soul naturally that I have ever met) but it's also sad b/c he's leaving in October. Well I was trying to make the best of it but last week he tells me hes moving an hour away until he ships out for a job. So even the time he is going to be here, I'm not going to see him much. I'd be ok with this, but slowly in the past few months I have totally and completely fallen in love with him. I dated someone for 4 years and never felt how I do for Beau. Before I met him I told my best friend that I wasn't interested in dealing w/the drama of a relationship unless I knew the guy was worth it. Then I met him and he is sooooo worth it. I honestly feel like he fits me like my puzzle piece. I know he likes me, but he's not in love w/me; which is fine and I understand that. But it's like all I want to do is even be in the same room w/him and I can't even be in the same city. Plus, I have noticed lately that he's trying to protect himself and kinda guard himself from his feelings for me so it doesn't hurt him when he leaves. Which I understand but thats emotional suicide too. I want to be able to love him as much I can bfore he goes and then see how things are from there. This is so hard b/c I never put my heart on the line and the one time I do and when I finally meet someone that I know I want to be with for a very long time, he's leaving for a very long time. I'm sorry, but I just needed to vent and I needed some sisterly support to help me through. I know some of you have dated ppl in the service before so I was wondering if you could give me some advice too. Thanks girls, I love you all!