Jadey28,
I think you hit the nail on the head right there. I can't believe I have let this relationship go on as long as it has. It seems like when someone buys you a car or leases it for you, lol, and gives you money , makes your life comfortable, etc it is harder to break up. Although it shouldn't have anything to do with that...those things in the end can be what tie you together.
I want to be as classy and gracious as possible in this situation because I don't want any undue angst for anyone. I feel really betrayed by him in a way because he made me open a joint bank account with him when he gave me money although I put my own money in it...it's just one more thing I have to worry about now.
I don't life when things come down to this and it gets ugly. I believe that he probably took advantage of my innocence when I met him at 19 and now I just want to live my life.
I am getting ready to go through rush in about 3 weeks and I am so excited. That is part of the reason I feel I can not let this wait any longer. I want to present my best self and not be all emotional and carrying a bunch of baggage. This is so hard for me because socially my life has basically fallen apart since I have been dating him and I have been so unhappy. I know I need to pick myself up and do this and I am mentally preparing myself but it is hard.
I agree that I should take the car to him myself and thank him. I think that sounds like the best idea. I want him to remember me as someone who had class and integrity.
And most of all, I want my own happiness...I am hoping to find it very soon!!!!
Much Love
Sweetchicky
