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I'm going to try to pick my words very carefully here, because I don't want emotions to get in the way of what I want to say. My "attacks" on DOC have always been careful to point out that no, I don't like them, and here is why- but I don't expect anyone to hold that same opinion based on my thoughts alone. If people on this website, or anywhere for that matter, hate DOC, it isn't because of me. I'm not that powerful of a person. I trust the intelligence of people who post here- I trust that they will take what I say with a grain of salt, and be mature enough to form their own opinions on things. My posts in the Risk Management and Hazing forum were aimed towards being more neutral on the subject than I actually am. I feel that I considered all of the facts and have been either refuting your points or learning from them. My posts in this thread, however, have a more personal nature. This is MY thread, about all the emotions and experiences behind the creation of MY sorority. Emotions play very heavily in this. Good times and bad are posted here- problems between sisters are addressed, problems with UCSC faculty, problems with other organizations. I post my true and often uncensored emotions here because the advice that I get back is the most valuable that I could ever hope for. People take me down a notch when I'm wrong, support me when I'm feeling hopeless, and congratulate me for all the amazing things I have done. But here's the catch- they do it respectfully. My thoughts on DOC have never been a matter of just trying to talk shit about them. They have been regarding our interactions and issues with them, and the basic facts of things they have done. I'm only human, I can't and won't completely conceal my emotions behind the matter.
So fine, you feel like you busted me out on those things you mentioned. But let me explain some things to you:
1. Had you actually read this entire thread, as opposed to just searching for shit that I may have talked about DOC, you would see that (among other things) those two posts that you quoted were a full year apart, at least. People change with time, and sometimes you realize people aren't who you thought.
2. Yes, I have been involved with DOC. I have been to their parties, I've been on the booze cruise, my sorority has had socials with them. Point is, it's past tense. I've gotten past the point in my life where getting drunk and crazy is as fun as it used to be. I've moved on, and I'm not the same person I was when all these things you're refering to happened.
3. You want me to stop being two faced? I'll be totally, brutally, bust myself out honest here: Yep, I've hooked up with guys from DOC. It's not a secret, and I'm not ashamed of it. Want to know why? Because their actions leading up to those events were so remarkably different from their actions during and after. I've been the drunk girl who believed that a guy actually was nice and not just trying to get in her pants. And I thank DOC for that- the experiences I had in that respect (which, by the way, are not all that much at all) have taught me to trust myself more than other people, to develop a thicker skin, to face my mistakes with maturity and self evaluation.
4. After that social, want to know what I did? I called the Pesident of DOC, and explained to him the circumstances behind the situation. We had never had a social with a fraternity before. We were there acting like we were at a party, not a sorority event- because we had never had a sorority event before. I'd been going to fraternity parties at SDSU since I was 14. Things got crazy there, things were considered acceptable that I have since found to be less than desirable activities. So I explained to the Pesident that I sincerely regretted the things that happened, and I didn't want DOC to think that we were always like that. And from then on, we learned slowly but surely about how things go. We started treating socials and rush events as more formal activities- we got burned hard in the beginning by our own naivety (sp?), and we learned from it.
5. I never ever said that I had a personal problem with the booze cruise. It's fun, it serves a specific person (get drunk and crazy on a boat! woo hoo!) and I totally understand why people go. My comments on the other thread were simply that I can understand why the university isn't a fan of such things.
6. My negative perceptions of DOC aren't because of the reasons that you may think. You don't know me- and you don't know all the things that have happened. I'm not going to be the bitch who gives a list of things that have done that myself, my sisters, and other people at UCSC didn't appreciate. I haven't mentioned any information that wasn't already known. Because you know what? I don't need to post all that shit. I don't need for anyone else to agree with me on this matter, because I know the truth. I have enough self respect and maturity to admit when I've made mistakes, and clear my own name when you tried to mar it. Get your information straight please. And maybe going off what your buddies tell you happened isn't the best way- things aren't always what they seem. I don't expect you to believe me over them, especially because I placed myself in some situations that looked pretty damn suspicious. But I respect EVERY SINGLE decision that I have made, and I don't really need you trying to get me or anyone else to doubt that.
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