[CatStarESP4]

I failed to mention that B and C told me to my face that night the organization not a friendship one! What fools are they!!! They should have known friendships, networking opportunities and possibly marriages are positive consequences of joining clubs and organizations (regardless of whether they're social, professional, political, etc). In this case, I have seen members in that group who are friends with each other and they hang with each other. I still don't understand why I was singled out because of that incident in conference.

The stink they made about it was very silly, but also extremely moronic.

I felt so terrible afterwards and spent some nights crying or in tears because of the stupidity.

I didn't see A the rest of the summer. We were reunited in the fall, but I didn't know how he would react to seeing me there. I thought he would get angry and tell me to "get the f*ck out of there". I thought that he must've been told about it, but not likely. I ignored him at first, but he said hello to me. He was very sweet to me, but I kept my distance at first (no thanks to the confrontation I had with B and C months earlier). Eventually, I was back at pre-incident form with him. Whenever I hung out with him, I felt comfortable being around him.