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i was so glad to read this thread because it echoes my feelings lately. i guess it just goes under the whole "lonely and depresesd" thing...here is my situation:
i just finshed my first year of college and it was AMAZING. best time of my life. in high school, i always had a boyfriend, so i can't say that i've never had a relationship or anytthing like that, because i have. in fact, i broke off a 2yr relationship right before college. it was definitely the right choice, too; i have never regretted it. so freshman year, i had lots of fun, let's just say that. i went pretty wild and met lots of boys....i'm sure y'all know how freshman boys are though (all they want is one thing, and that is not a girl to date!) but i had lots of fun, met lots of really nice guys (despite their tendency to only think about sex, sex sex!), and made a great group of friends that couldn't be nicer to me. i joined AXO and became part of the sisterhood. i like to think that i have a fairly active social life, i mean i don't go out and get shitfaced every night but i don't sit on my ass all the time either (except tonight....ha!) so everything seems fine, and for the most part, it is. but when i came home for the summer, everything changed. i'm now states apart from my best friends, and don't have the social life i had in college. in a way, it's good to be home and just relax, but i miss it. and most importantly, being home and being bored a lot of the time allows me to dwell on the fact that i WANT to date again, no more of those casual hookups that i had at school, but i want one guy. i'm not necessarily looking for a serious relationship, but just someone i can go out with, who i like and who really likes me. i guess i really shouldn't be bitching about this, i mean i'm only 19, but i guess sometimes we all have things in our lives that leave us feeling empty.
and for all y'all out there who have had it up to HERE with asshole guys, "i like you as just a friend" guys, etc....here is a quote that i just love.....learn it, live it, love it!
"never allow someone to become your priority while you remain only their option"
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