The thing is...I DON'T sit at home all the time. I'm NEVER alone or just sitting around...I go out with friends, I go to Pike parties, etc etc. I'm not shy; I'm VERY social and talkative and outgoing. But not with guys. I mean I'll talk to them, and be friends with them, but I can't flirt. Guys I like never have a clue I'm interested.
In all the classes I've taken I've struck up conversations with guys, but it has never led to a darn thing. Not even a friendship even.
Some of you mentioned online. I know it works for some people, but the guy I went out with 3 years ago I met online. He's a nice guy, and tons of fun...but I talked to him online for a few months and thought I really liked him but once we were together (like in person), I just didn't like him that way. I tried it once, and it didn't work.
I have no interest in being married yet, not at ALL. I don't understand how my friends are married...I feel like we're all too young. I also don't expect guys to just fall at my feet...but I'd like to know what it's like to have someone that likes you. I'd like to know how it feels to be asked out. I'm just too emotional sometimes I guess.
I always like guys that are TOTALLY out of my league. I've liked one particular guy for about a year. He has no clue, and I don't think I will tell him. One, I'm too scared to. And two, why would I when so many other girls like him? He's one of my closest friends, so I know right now I would just hear the "just a friend" speech. The thing is, I just connect with him so well. The first day I met him, we stayed up intil 3 in the morning just talking, and we talked about deep stuff; stuff I don't usually share with people for a while. We're so much alike, and we have so much fun together. But like I said, why bother? I'm tired of getting my hopes up and then getting sad. And people are sometimes like, "well I know this single guy I could hook you up with", but I have kind of a fear of guys I don't really know, and plus why should I have to be set up with someone? Why can't someone notice me on their own? Plus, I secretly hold out for that guy I like as if magically he'll fall in love with me.
I feel like I'm being stupid. I don't want to settle down yet...I just want someone to notice me. Is that too much to ask for?