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needed to bring this back to vent
My friend with the codependent issues is coming back today, and she knows I have issues with her and I don't want to get into it for my last 2.5 weeks here. No matter what I say or how I say "you are incapable of being single, and I am sick of your boy/man drama/issues" it is going to turn ugly.
I was allegedly on the work schedule today which I (honestly) didn't know about. I don't want to go to work or class, I just want to leave this place. I could never go to that job again, how irresponsible is that?
My father died on a Friday the 13th two years ago...this is likely part of my hostility/anger/general dislike of 99.9% of people I have talked to today...and it isn't even NOON yet. Friday is going to be a day from hell.
I wanted to have curry/chinese for lunch but as I have had an upset tummy all night, and I feel like I am going to hurl on an empty stomach it may be a bad idea.
I had to turn my crush lose...after a couple of years of keeping in touch, and his repeated utterances of "I want to be your boyfriend, you make me feel happy/special/loved/important etc." but nothing other than words I have to put a stop to it. He lives in another state but repeatedly I offered to buy his tickets to come visit, or come visit myself. I hate this feeling of beeing good enough for myself but never enough for anyone else.
I don't think my stuffed goat can take much more of me this week.
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