Hey!.. i know things seem tough at times.. we, as a new chapter DEFINATELY dealt with our share of strife.. Also, we colonized on a commuter campus with very little greek life, so everything that we got back we worked for....hard. The cool thing was, that in the beginning, it really felt like hard work, but as time went on, it began to feel like play. the more things you go to and organize, the more you like to goto.. by the end of the semester, i practically lived on campus. If not for an event, then just to hang out with my sisters between classes, and i loved it..there was no other place i wanted to be. Anyway, long story short..we came from nothing..no background, no traditions, nothing, to the flourishing orginazation we have today.. it's all what you put into it.. the more you put in, the more you get out of it. So i'm sorry you're leaving.. i hate to lose a sister due to weak bonds, but you gotta do what you gotta do.
.. best of luck
P.S. as for the deactivation. .have you paid up on your dues.. they won't let you deactivate unless you are in the clear with your dues since you were active this semester.