The sad monster use to visit me when my friends got married. I couldn't understand why it was never me saying I do. Like you guys, I too am a beautiful person inside and out. I have a lot to offer a man. This thing really bugged me until one day I was thinking about all of my friends who had gotton married. Just about all of them are divorced. I thought about how I held them when they cried. I thought about how I took a couple of them to the emergency room. I thought about how I've gotton up 2,3,4 o'clock in the morning to listen. I decided that I had the best seat in the house. Don't get me wrong I believe that marriage can be beautiful even through the bad times. I am just saying that we can desire a thing so badly and not be ready for it. I said earlier that that I have a lot to offer, but I also have alot to work on. For example, I have this thing with rejection. It almost kills me if I ask for something and be denied. If I suggest that we go to the movies and he says that tonight is not a good night. I'll never suggest it again. It could be that he's tired or doesn't have any money or in a bad mood. Nevertheless I see it as pure rejection. Can you picture the kind of marriage that I would have. I am working on that part of me. I have other baggage that I need to discard. The mate that God has for me could have baggage as well. If we got together now, we would be two infected people making a mess out of things. I've decided until God sees fit to bless me with my wonderful man,that I am going to continue to work on the areas that he reveals to me and pray much for whomever my strong,sexy, handsome, intelligent,GOOD THANG is.
Conskeeted19
You are the master of your own destiny!
[This message has been edited by Conskeeted19 (edited November 30, 2000).]
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