serenity...
I am finishing my research as a Ph.D. in molecular biology and I tell you, it ain't gettin' any better... You are constantly justifying and proving why you are there in the first place!!! I don't know what to tell you other than FIND some mentor, FAST!!! Someone to vent your frustrations to, someone who shares your vitality in your field and someone who can honestly and constructively give you positive feedback. Don't allow them to get you crazy, don't let them tell you that you don't know. If not you, then WHO? If not now, then WHEN?
Given the fact that you are interested in science of some sort, it seems to me that because of your current location, that ultimately you pursuit of scientific degree is one that is often questioned because you are learning the "pinnacle" of european society--their central ideology, their cultural asili (Read Marimba Ani's "Yurugu"--then you'll understand). As people of Afrikan descent, we are not allow to enter into these fields of education... Know their scientific thoughts elucidates how their whole universe unfolds. YOU are not suppose to know this information and especially at a majority institution!!!
I give much LOVE to ya, and never let them eat you away!!! Never lose what you are really all about. Always know that it will be done and put your energies into some kind of higher power if you believe. If you don't then, meditate...
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