Inquirer if I may add, if you are comfortable with the way you spiritually nourish yourself then you shouldn't worry about what others may think. Without being disrespectful, if anyone decides they want to judge based on their 'ideals' of proper religious worship thats on them. With regards to you someday becoming a member I think that if you are clear with yourself in your desires it will shine through. As many members have said if it is your time then it will happen. Good Luck my sister
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