[valkyrie]

I'm not an expert, but I have a few thoughts.

I don't think that anybody can make other people miserable. People who care about you probably don't enjoy hearing you complain about your life, but I really doubt that you're making anyone miserable.

What are your complaints about your life? If we know what the things are that are bothering you, maybe we can provide some suggestions.

You can never know that you would be miserable for the rest of your life. I've had days where I've felt miserable and thought it would last forever. It doesn't.

If the antidepressant you are taking isn't helping, maybe you could try a different one. There are many types of medication, and sometimes it takes a bit of trial and error to find the right one. I hope you are also seeing a therapist -- I don't know that a psychiatrist who prescribes medication is always as good as a therapist who just talks to you. If you haven't tried both, that might be a good idea.

No, I don't think it would be better for someone to kill herself. Trust me when I say you won't ALWAYS be miserable.