Lady,
I understand where you are coming from. I have been a person who has hard time letting go of things and like to be in control of all situations. I find it difficult to let things go and I think it may be God's way of testing our patience. That is the hardest thing to do. I think that it is God's way of telling us that it is not us who are in control but him. If I may suggest this, try praying for just peace of mind, except that you can't control the situation. Find a scripture, poem or something that you can read which gives you comfort. Keep reading it until you truly understand what is being expressed. Then at that point I believe you will be at greater peace and understanding. Sisterfriend it will be alright!!!! You know you can always e-mail me if you need to talk more
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