*sigh* Ok, this wasn't about me. And I lightweight feel funny for feeling the way that I do, but it's how I feel.
Last week, the student body went to a play of sorts or something where students were performing. One of our girls placed first place in an essay contest. She read her essay; it was about one of the teachers here. In the essay, she told how she wanted "to be just like" the teacher when she grew up. The teacher is White.
Last night, we had our spring dance (yes, in the middle of the week, another story for another day). While at the dance, I overheard a student tell a different teacher that she wanted to be just like her when she grew up. This teacher is White as well.
I'm conflicted over this. Why are these young Black girls looking up to these White women? What are we (the Black women here) doing wrong? We are always talking about being positive role models for our youth, and here it is, they are looking up to these White women.
Why does this make me sad? And is there something wrong with me for feeling this way? On the one hand, I'm glad they have SOMEONE to look up to. On the other hand, it further reinforces the reasons I think we should have MORE Black teachers at an ALL BLACK school. HC we only have FOUR Black teachers out of about 20 total?
I don't know. What y'all think?
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I have some type of internal issues? Insecurities? Why don't our Black girls look up to us? And am I overreacting since it was only TWO girls who've said this? And neither of them are in my house. *sigh*