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Originally posted by alphaiota
smiley -
here are a few questions:
1. are you having trouble sleeping? or are you sleeping all the time?
2. do you have a loss of appetite? or do you eat all the time?
3. do you sometimes feel like you don't want to even get out of bed ?
4. do you cry at the drop of a hat? (yes, cuz you just said that in your last post)
5. is your life being controlled by your moods?
6. can you see a future to your life? do you feel there is nothing more for you?
shelley j
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all except #1 describes me. but the thing is i am very obsessive about the control that i have over my life. i know i have to get up everyday. there are certain times that i have to wake up by or my whole day is shot. i leave an hour early for work even though i am fifteen minutes away. i have a fear of being late. everything has to be right. i cannot fail at things that i do at work. it contributes to my bad mood. i have to pass my classes in school or i will never forgive myself. cause i already messed up a lot in that area. i just have to stay in control even when i have no control. i have to make things happen. so i guess my mood does control my life. its the one thing that i have given up on. i just let it take over. on the outside, i try to stay on top, but inside i know that i am a failure.