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i was in a really bad mood today. then after a few hours at work, i got a little happy and was smiling. i know dont what my feelings are. were my sad feelings and anger all fake or maybe smaller then i made it? does smiling mean that i didnt really have those negative feelings. i am confused. i cry at stuff that goes on in my head. sometimes things run in my head so quickly that i cant keep up and i freak. it literally feels like i am losing my mind. sometimes my mind moves so slow that i cannot make out what i am thinking. i know..i am weird.