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KTBug,

It sounds like you may be suffering from depression and being stressed along with it. I've been going through the same thing and like you I don't want to cry in front of anyone. Seriously I don't know if any sisters even know about how I have been feeling. I always try to put up a happy front but as soon as I'm away from everyone I just want to curl up in a ball and cry. Or if I don't want to cry I just feel totally disconnected from everyone and everything. Even the pride I take in my school work seems to have disappeared and the simple things I used to take joy in and that would bring a smile to my face don't seem to phase me.

For a long time (the last year at least) I didn't have a clue what was going on with me. I have had a lot of stress in personal life with my boyfriend, family, and school but never made a connection that I could be suffering from depression. I finally was talking to my blood sister after I had thoughts that scared the
H--L out of me that had never ever gone through my head ever before. My sister was the one who told me to go talk to my doctor and sure enough I was suffering from depression. I've always thought I was stronger then that but the doctor said depression is quite common and is nothing to be ashamed of. The doctor said often people don't realize that they are suffering from depression even. I'm finally coming out of it and starting to enjoy life again and am just so glad my sister convinced me to go see a doctor

I strongly suggest you go talk to your doctor and see what's happening. In the meantime just know that you have all your sisters here on GreekChat for you. If you need anything feel free to PM me and I'll give you my phone number to call me. Don't give up on anything and please go see a doctor ASAP!!!

Hugs,
Carolyn