Lately i dont know what is wrong with me...things have been super stressful at school, but i dont feel connected to my group anymore. When i go to the house, i feel uncomfortable and uneasy and im afraid to say things, fearing that no one will understand. I havent gone to any events lately, i've just been signing the book, now...i have a lot of things going on with class...im taking 20 credits and its been mid-terms for me, so i've had to study...A LOT. I feel like im slipping up big time into old habits again, which isnt good and it seems that i dont even care if i die from this. I know that sounds so stupid, but im serious. I dont know what is wrong with me and i just want to cry but i cant show my emotions to anyone, i dont want them to know. Earlier in the semester, i wrote my Archon a letter, explaining how things were not well and nothing ever happened...she didnt even say anything to me. I sorta feel like im not even part of my chapter anymore, i know that sounds terrible to say. Im embarassed to be here, writing to other phi sigs b/c im scared to talk to my chapter.....i just wish sometimes i wasnt here
Please dont be mean, im not meaning to make anyone angry here...just trying to figure things out and get some advice...on what...i dunno....
LITP,
ktbug