[Kevin]

You do what you want because that's what you want to do. You are seeking a response either externally or internally (like self-satisfaction). I believe the most honest thing to do is admit to yourself that what you do is for yourself. If you find that you are doing something you don't like.. you either stop and say that you didn't like that or you continue and have some kind of self-appreciation.. imagining yourself as an unsung hero, etc.