I was hoping to have the chance to speak to the 2 actives who had been saying these things to the sisterhood chair, sot hat I could apologize if I had overreacted, and to let them know that I was the one to email nationals. I saw one last night when she came to the S.C.'s apt, and she had been crying and very upset. I wasn't counting on thinga happening today that would make it necessary for me to go home for the night, so I hadn't talked to them yet. My roommate (also a pledge) just told me that they've told the whole chapter what happened, and I'm not there to say anything. I even tried to call the others ( we have a SMALL chapter) to let them know before those that were so pissed got to them first. My roommate said I should try to convince them to "keep" me, but I'm not sure that's something I want to do. They seem to find it perfectly acceptable that these things have gone on, and the word from nationals (straight from the constitution) is that they don't handle ANY hazing matters. EVERYTHING is handled locally. Meaning, they can do whatever they want to me at standards. I have the most service hours in the chapter, have attended every meeting, have planned most of the pledge-planned projects, basically worked my tail off. I don't want to depledge less than 2 weeks before activation, but I also want a sisterhood to be proud of. I want to look back as an alumna and say, "I hope my daughter joins my sorority." I don't feel that way now.
I'm at a loss and I don't really know what to do. I so want to give up and quit, but I don't want all my work to be for nothing.
Crystal