ZetaLuvBunny, thanks for sharing that. I don't think you're crazy at all. I only hope that one day you can reach a point where you can be completely happy with the way you look and don't try to change it.
To address something you said in your posts:
One of the hardest things to do in life is to take our own advice. It is easier to for us to see the beauty, faults, shortcomings, etc. in others than it is for us to see in ourselves. But, it can be done.
This may sound cheesy but... I want you to get better...
