Sorhor Bluethunder,
Keep breathing because there are other fish in the sea and there is always someone else out there that is more suitable for you. Anyway, would you really want to be in a long distant relationship where you might not be able to trust the brother? I know that you are hurting right now, however, you have to continue to live and enjoy life. Just give yourself sometime to heal and then when you know that your heart is ready give it another shot!
Serioussigma22