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Hmm..
I recently broke up with my boyfriend. He didn't cheat on me (as far as I know, although I am suspicious), but he was an asshole for the last two months of our relationship. He treated me like he did not give a sh*t about me or my opinions. He picked fights and pressured me to do things I didn't want to. One day we got into a fight and he got so mad he shook me. I was shocked and angry, but we decided that we still wanted to try and be together. I KNEW I needed to get out of the realtionship, but I couldn't do it.
Now, why? Why didn't I tell him to leave the first moment he started doing things that were hurtful, unsupportive and disrespectful? Why did I try and hold on when things got worse? I really hoped that things would get better. We had dated for two years and The last 6 months had been pure bliss. I knew he was going through a hard time, and was hoping that he would wake up one day, realize he had been a jerk, and buy me flowers. I guess now I know he wanted out, and these actions were a subconcious way to get me out. But we had such a good realtiuonship before, and the comfort level was so high, it was (and still is!) hard to think that I can't go to him when I am upset, or happy or whatever. Having something that is so wonderful change to soem,thing so wrong is hard, and in an effort to try and make everything work like I wanted to, I tried to stick it out.
Obviously, things didn't work, and I can say it is probably for the better. But it's still hard!
Anyway, there's a littel insight to what a woman might think as she stays with a guy that has cheated on her.
-M
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