Try to hang in there. Sometimes the hard times that we go through teaches us to be stronger. Sometimes I look back at some of the hard times that I have had and realized that those things happened for a reason. Only you will be able to figure that out. You may not be able to see it now but trust me, eventually you will. It will then be up to you to handle the situation with your new found knowledge. Keep in mind that the first positive thing that you did was to seek advice and to communicate with others. Hopefully if whatever you are going through now should occur again in the future, you will be stronger than you are now since you have somewhat been through it before
LUV YAH and I hope that things in your marriage work out.