[leilanimoon]

Now that my thought processes have become a lot more clear. I've been able to sift through things logically and now I'm kind of chalking up my experience to my juinor status in school. Since \i can't find anything that went wrong at the actual parties where I was cut, I'm kind of thinking that maybe that is what was working against me. <Maybe this is wishful thinking, or maybe I'm right on the mark, but I've decided that if the house I REALLY want does COB, I will try and do that. I have never wanted to go greek just to wear letters, I had definite favorites for a variety of reasons, not necessarily because they were the top dogs, because if I felt uncomfortable there, I don't care how creme of they crop they appear. I also am not blinded by things like that because I know that internally a lot of politics can occur. I've seen it happen with my friends.

Most people at this school don't always see the value of joining a sorority because in SB, it is totally true that you can have a VERY active social life without it, and the alcohol flows at non-fraternity parties MUCH more than at fraternities, since theyve made us a relatively dry campus. I've never been into it for that reason, I truly feel like I would have pride wearing the letters of a select few houses, and I would feel like I sold myself short by accepting anything else. I could easily have gone with one of the houses that prefed me, but I'd feel like I just did it just to be able to say I'm greek, which is juts not me at all. I;m just gonna follow my own philosophy that if I really want something, to go after it, but also to know when to say "when". The COB will be my last effort as an undergraduate, because I don't want to chase after any pipe dreams or become an annoying pest to a house I truly respect. Maybe they really DON'T think I'd fit, or maybe they'll remember that they liked me and the luck of the draw is what was against me. Thank you to all of you who have given me your whole-hearted support, if the house I want does do COB, I will keep you all updated on if it works out or not. Thank you all soo very much!!!