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*Whew*
This was probably my most emotional night!

I was invited back to ADPi, AXO, Tri-Delt, and AEPhi. I was heartbroken by not being invitd back to Theta and Kappa, my two favorite houses. The Tri-Delt party was first, but it wasn't mandatory that we go, so I didn't. I went to my friends' house instead and bawled like crazy...I got so down on myself and felt like, man, what did I do wrong this time? I must've totally blown it! My friends all rallied around me and cheered me up and told me that I should just stay with it through pref night, that I never know what might happen, and that I might start to click more with the other chapters. They walked me to my next party, which was ADPi.

Their theme was something along the lines of Casino Night. The girls wore either black and red or black and pinstripes. It was very cute, they had pictures of Marilyn Monroe and other celebrities on the wall and everything. Now, ifyou'll remember, the night before I had ranked ADPi over AXO, but last night, the conversatios didn't flow as beautifully as they had before. I was starting to just feel so exhausted, because inside I was still extremely crushed by being dropped by my favorites. I still think these girls are really cool and all, but , I dunno...i just felt really burnt out..

Disillusioned, I walked back to my friends houses and they were disappointed to hear that I hadnt enjoyed myself as much as the night before, but they made me snap out of it by cracking jokes and making me stay with it. They walked me once again to my next house, which was AXO (I skipped AEPHI, I know some of you will be disappointed, I'm really sorry, but I have been so upset with the fact that even if you rank a house as your absolute last choice they keep inviting you back because they invite EVERYONE back. That's as bad to me as a chapter who immediately cuts you, it's like they don't care who they pick, they just let ANYONE in..i dunno..im sorry, but it is just something that I don't like about our process here. I would rather have had just adpi and axo invite me back or just both drop me. I dont want to have to pretend to be interested in aplace where i know without a doubt i'd decline their bid.

AXO's theme was New York New York and they had tables set up showing how they make valentines cards for children and they had tiffanys bags from new york, and then there was one for toys and they had fao schwartz bags..these conversations were really cool and by the end of this party i was gklad i stuck it through. my friends really like this chapter here because they are very visible on campus, and love to do things together. Many of them go to the gym together and sport their letters. By my being relatively new to the campus, I don't see or know many greeks, but I, too, have seen them. They have a lot of pride in their chapter. What is weird is that, although ADPi is a great chapter adn they have cool events, not many people know they exist on campus and I'm not quite sure why this is. Maybe htey don't wear their letters as much?!?!

Tonight I find out which two, or if I even get two, invited me back for prefs. This is the night to end all nights. I'll know if greek life is really for me or not. If I'm dropped by my two, I can only hope for a snap bid from some other house, although I hear that's highly unlikely....

Either way I'm proud of myself for sticking it out and all. One girl I met in my Rho Chi group really likes AXO too, so it would be cool if we wnded up in the same house together!!!