There is an old saying.....
nothing worth having is ever easy!
Corina -- you are a strong & fantastic woman who has done an awesome job that many many many women could never hope to achieve -- so keep focused on your goal & be proud of that! It is natural to feel like you want things to be easy 'just once'...and perhaps one day they will be...but don't give up hope! I am praying that the reason AXD is asking for your address is to send you an official welcome in their sisterhood! I have all my fingers & toes crossed!!