you've had an incredible roller coaster ride and came out a winner.
i echo everyone else. give it time and see if the feel doesn't get a whole lot better.
the organization is enormous, immense and terrific...the reputation in madtown is amazing.
just let things happen. play the willow game if that helps -- just bend a bit -- and see if things don't feel better.
congrats on your bid. i'm thrilled for you.
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