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Oops I should have mad that more clear-- by ex bf I meant EX BEST FRIEND-Liz,.
I am so pathetic, on my campus they have movie night and tonight they showed Mr. Deeds and when he makes a special date with his girl so he can ask her to marry her--I began to cry bc all I could think of was the fact that no guy will ever do that for me(by this time I've had 4 beers). Now all my friends want toknow what's wrong and I feel like such an idiot so I cant' tell them," The movie really made me think of how no man will ever love me the way I would love them. Either I meet guys that have had long term relationships(which I have never had) or I meet guys that are unattracted to me." So no way am I going to tell my girl friends (the 2 I have in Fl) nor will I tell my Guy friends for sure.
I've felt this way since high school--lonely!!! I want a guy to love me so bad and I can't explain it-- bc I have a close relationship with my dad and I know sometimes on tv they say poor relationships with fathers cause problems with relationships.
This is no way a pity party for me. I think that I am severley depressed, but I really don't want medication or counseling.
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