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I forgot, I do have one more thing to say that brings me the most concern. I live on the AOPi floor, and have kind of gotten to know the girls (way better than I should, I am sure) and I am absolutely in love with some of them. This has REALLY stressed me out over the past week. On one hand, I really like them, but only bc they have an unfair advantage. I already KNOW what the "real" AOPis are like. Does that make sense? It is easier to like them and feel comfortable with them because I already KNOW them. Thi has just totally strained me and I am confused about what to do. If I would have lived on another floor, I would have felt the same way about them, REGUARDLESS of "where my heart told me to go". I think it is completely unfair to put PNMs on a Sorority floor, especially with all of the silly rules they have. All, and I do mean ALL of the other rushees that live on the AOPi floor (there are three others) want AOPi, and I am not sure that I do, just for the simple fact that I am trying to be as objective as possible throughout all this. And, what if I DONT pick them? I still like these girls, and I know that I will probably move to whatever sorority floor I pledge, but they will be insulted. They already told me (in the least infraction way as possible) that they would always be my freind no matter where I went, but that they might be sad if I moved off the floor and on to another one (and please for god's sake, if you do go to NSU, please do not try to get a rush infration on them. They did NOT say anything about AOPi, so I really dont think there was anything wrong with what they said, at least as far as the rules are concerned). I dont think this is fair for several reasons. AS much as I may like them, I would like to live with my sisters!! I dont want to miss out on all of the sorority fun just bc I dont live with my sisters!! Anyways, That has put a whole lot of stress on me the past few days, and I am really having a hard time trying to keep an open mind and decide what to do tomorrow.
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