Blaine,
So, so sorry to hear about your news! (I honestly am having a hard time knowing what to say). While I don't want to sound like this is the end for you, I do want you to focus on what YOU want. . .as my husband says, "Follow your bliss". If we do that, other things seem to fall into place. My prayers are with you. . .
My prayers are also with Michael Junkers friends and family. I firmly believe that we all have a purpose here. . .some are easier to recognize than others. Some have more than one purpose. The gifts he gave others will live on. . .
I'm just at a loss right now. . .