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I'm really starting to get nervous...what do you do when you suddenly are confronted with what you've worked towards for so long? In many ways this feels like applying to college or something- so much effort culminates in something and it's scary as hell to know that you're so close and there's still a chance that things won't go as you hope. I don't know what I'll do if this doesn't work out. I mean obviously we will be ok and we'll move on but I'll be crushed. It's very comforting to know that, whether things turn out the way I hope or not, I can come here and post and get such warm responses. I'm always suprised when I read that someone considers me to be inspiring or something. I guess deep down inside I have this concern that really I'm only doing this for myself....it's like I'm second guessing my own intentions, which is a ridiculous thing to do. I guess since this has all been happening it's just seemed like something to do, not anything amazing or super special. It makes me happy to know that maybe everything that NBO has done will help some other people realize their goals of becoming greek, or doing anything they have to work hard for. All along I've been saying that things happen for a reason, so I'm trying to keep that in mind. Regardless of whether things go as we hope with AZD, I'm still going to feel an extra amount of respect for them, just because they listened to what we had to say and are giving us a chance, and through this whole process of communicating with them I've felt like they really respected us. More later, gotta get some sleep to prepare for the looooong drive back up North tomorrow!
love, Corina
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