Hi Pink Bunny and AKAtude,
Thanks for your insight ladies, I have taken it to heart. I know it may seem that I am being a little impatient and that I am selling myself short but the truth is that I'm a junior and I dont have a lot of time. I considered waiting for a graduate chapter, but I'm really afraid of how selective they are and how you cant send them letters of interest. Also, my academic plans for graduate school will make it nearly impossible for me to make time for anything, much less being on line. My entire outlook on life (for the most part) is Carpe Diem. Someday when I'm old and grey, I want to be able to look back and say that I exhausted every oppurtunity imaginable and experienced everything I could. I dont want to spend the rest of my life wondering "what if?" The problem is that this situation does not meet that criteria. Choosing either would leave me with a permanent "what if I had done that?" situation. I feel like if I do either that I will regret it, but if I dont do either I will regret it. I dont know Pink Bunny, I pondered over your question "what do i really want" and its a number of things, some physical, some deeper then that. To some this question seems like and no brainer, but for some reason I feel stumped.
have a blessed evening
BIG_Crimsonguy
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