[HotDamnImAPhiMu]

The doctor says I have a form of von Willebrand's disease (a bleeding disorder) which means my body will abort any children I have. This means I can technically *get* pregnant, but I wouldn't be able to carry a pregnancy to term.

I think part of what upset me so much was my boyfriend's reaction. We've been dating about 9 months and talked about how family is important to both of us (although we are, of course, years away from even considering marriage let alone pregnancy.) He said he really couldn't consider marrying any woman who couldn't have children, and that any "decent guy" who could do better wouldn't, either. He feels having one's biological children is a right men have, and an inner desire all men share.

For me, I think I'd be really OK with adopting. The things I want in a family have more to do with raising and loving the kids than the pregnancy.... if that makes any sense? I am a little shocked and surprised, and I wish I had this option -- I would love to see what a little boy or girl my husband and I would have would look like, act like, think like. But I think part of what's making this so hard to get over is the fact that I feel like I just found out I'm not going to be able to do all the things other women can do. And although I think my boyfriend's statements were a little over-the-top (we broke up about a week ago, I admit partially because I felt like he wasn't being very supportive of me while I was dealing with all this) it still hit a chord inside of me.