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Well, after the derailment of my thread (LOL), I guess I’ll just finish up my story…
I spent all night praying I would get an invite from Kacey Musgraves and only [COLOR="rgb(255, 0, 255)"]Kacey Musgraves[/COLOR] to avoid having to deal with Kenny Chesney, their awkwardness, and the possibility of getting bid from them all together. I appreciated their love for one another, but I knew I could never see myself in their sisterhood. So off I went to get my invites, this time alone, slightly more hopeful, but overall scared. With reason to be. There was only one name on my list and it was….
Kenny Chesney.
Yep. I only got an invite to pref for the one house, a I had never liked and had ranked last every round. So what did I do?
My rho gamma happened to be at the invite table and came up to ask me what I was thinking. I said the only thing that could come to mind: “I am going to drop.”
I filled out my drop form and walked back to my dorm more confident than I had ever felt in my life. Was I walking away from Greek life, something I had dreamed about for years? Yes. But the house I was walking away from wasn't my home. It wasn’t until I called my mother that I completely lost it.
I cried. I cried for hours. I ordered myself an extra-large pizza and my mom sent me a chocolate covered fruit tray and I let myself induldge and watch chick flicks for the rest of the night. I considered petitioning Panhellenic for a new chapter to be created. I considered transferring schools. But I never considered going back to Kenny Chesney. I was uncomfortable at every party. I know people always say go to pref and give the chapter another chance, but after everything, I couldn’t bring myself to do it. The way I was treated at the party did not make me feel like I belonged. I also didn't want to take the chance of accepting a bid a dropping, making it impossible for me to go through spring recruitment.
The next day, I woke up to a phone call from the director of recruitment at Kenny Chesney asking if I would take a snap bid. I respectfully declined. I still do not regret it. Later that day, I stared at Facebook and watched it explode when bids were passed out. My two closest friends that didn’t know each other became sisters in Luke Bryan. Actually, I had close friends end up going to different houses and I now know someone in every house but Kenny Chesney.
So, now what? Ultimately, I’d like to re-rush in the spring. Only two chapters hit quota (Jason Aldean and Keith Urban). Most of the older girls in the Greek system considered this to be a “weak” recruitment because over 25% of the PNMs dropped. But I’m not sure, with my school being so small, if being a “drop out” will play to my disadvantage. Or will my knowing someone in every house help me out in the end?
I guess I thought I would share my story for other PNMs who are in a similar position in the future. Any advice on what I should do would be welcomed! If you have any other questions about my recruitment, let me know! Thanks for reading!
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