[amIblue?]

A dear friend of mine was in a very similar situation as you about a decade ago. She met a man who she believed to be the one and was married about a year later. Married life for her has gone from disappointment that began two days after her wedding to anger to misery to where she just says she feels dead inside. They had a child within a year of being married, and she has said to me several times that were it not for the child she would have divorced him a long time ago. He's not a bad man; he's not abusive nor does he have a drinking or drug problem. If anything, I'd diagnose him as being pathologically self-centered. So, my vibrant, interesting, funny friend has become someone who thinks she just has to endure life. She is jealous of every single friend she has, and even told me one time that she was jealous of a friend who was getting a divorce.

I tell you her story because I agree with what everyone else has said. Enjoy your life now with what you have. It is hard being the only single one. I got married later also, and I remember being so jealous I couldn't see straight when younger people were getting married and having babies. There are worse things than being single, trust me.