[AOII Angel]

Your story is heart rending. Sometimes you just have to wonder how one person can handle so much. I agree with the others who have suggested that you need to take care of yourself first. Mourn properly for lost dreams (there is nothing wrong with adjusting to the realities of what it means to have a child with Down Syndrome), care for your child as she recovers from surgery and I'm sure goes to therapy for a litany of other issues, and mourn the loss of your two sisters who passed so suddenly just as you should have been happily celebrating the birth of your child. I'm sure you are mentally and physically exhausted. Time heals all wounds, but you have to give yourself that time. Another suggestion when you are feeling better would be to help the chapter find a way to honor these sisters. A special memorial, an award named for them, scholarship endowed in their name. Focusing on something positive out of the tragedy can help.