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Post-Preference
I went back to my dorm after ranking and did not sleep for a single second. I felt like I had made the right choice for me, but I will still very anxious over whether I’d get that dreaded call from my Rho Gamma. I suicided for two reasons: 1) If I received a bid from Snow White and refused to take it or dropped during pledging, I would be ineligible to go through colony recruitment with Tiana. After Rapunzel, Tiana was the organization I was most interested in and intrigued by, so I figured I should go after what I wanted the most. And 2) I did not feel enough of a connection to Snow White to take a spot from someone who really wanted to be there. I know that probably sounds like I’m trying to paint 17 year old me in a better light than is realistic, but I honestly felt awful that I didn’t feel anything for an organization whose sisters had been so kind and welcoming to me for the past week. The women in Snow White were so sweet and I became friends with several of them after recruitment, but I just wasn’t meant to be their sister.
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