OK, so I went off to college in a new city not that long ago and I went through NPC rush and initiated into a house. All the while being told that I should have waited and weighed more options. Being eager to make my own decisions and do what I felt like doing, I dove headfirst into Greek life. I'm just now realizing how much of a mistake that was.
Going Greek in general wasn't a mistake, but joining an NPC sorority was. I initially felt good about my decision and it was decent for the most part. Now I've realized that that was not where my heart or head actually was.
I fully believe that I should have waited and tried to become a member of the NPHC sorority that would've been legacy to me.
I was so eager to be a part of something that I just blindly joined an organization. The women are wonderful ladies, but a lot of things happened during my time there that shouldn't have. I was pushed to do things that I wouldn't normally have done. I was encouraged to party instead of study. Things like that happened a lot while I was at the school.
I now realize that Big Sisters are supposed to guide you. They're supposed to have your best interest in mind. They're supposed to educate you and help you. That didn't happen for me. I feel like they didn't care about my academics. I feel like I was just another girl to party with.
I hate that I was so impressionable and naive.
I wish I would've listened to my dad and focused on my grades so that I would've been a great candidate to continue the family legacy.
I'm not at that school anymore and there's no chapter here. I would'nt have joined it anyway.
I want nothing more than to start over and try again. I've seen people say that I could technically disaffiliate from the NPC and attempt to join the NPHC if that chapter decided to have me, but I'm not even sure about that whole process.
I feel like another sorority wouldn't want me anyway.
Basically, I have no real idea what to do about my situation.
Does anyone have any suggestions?
Anything would be appreciated.