I've been lurking a while but figured since you all helped me so much, I'd at least update! I ended up having to drop out of formal recruitment after some serious considerations.

I know it wasn't the best decision but I'd rather not participate than to go through recruitment, maybe end up getting a bid and not having the funds to do so, which is a long story within itself. Anyway, it'll give me time to focus on what matters most, school, and I've found some other groups I'd like to join possibly so I'll be fine being independent! I emailed Greek life and was told it is a big possibility none of the houses will be participating in COR but you never know so I'll have to see if I'm still interested once the semester really starts!