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After all the girls got back from their parties, we had plenty of time before dinner to talk on our dorm floor. We all piled into one room and shared our thoughts:
Patsy: was choosing between Daenerys and Jon Snow
Sharon: was choosing between Sansa and Jaime Lannister
Amy: had dropped out and had gone home until school officially started because she didn't get asked back to Cersei
Tamara: was choosing between Arya and Ygritte
Lori: was choosing between Cersei and Sansa, but was a Cersei legacy so duh.
Jennifer: was choosing between Jon Snow and Jaime Lannister
I still felt a little awkward. For the most part, these girls were getting to choose between the houses that I'd really wanted, except 'Tamara.' I didn't talk much during the conversations and comparisons, because I was still so sad that my closest friends had all cut me from Jaime Lannister and Daenerys. Didn't these girls realize how LUCKY they were? I spoke with 'Tamara' privately later, and she confessed that she was going Arya, all the way. I thought what a great pledge sister she would be, and how nice it would be to become better friends with her. But the ready-made friend group I had waiting at Catelyn - how could I let them all down by choosing another house where I really knew no one very well?
I excused myself to go think alone. I knew Catelyn would be great, based on my friends being there, by how comfortable I felt each time I was there, by how I felt I could be myself and brainy or flighty as the mood struck and I would still be welcomed. Their house was really pretty, too. Everything seemed to be pointing toward Catelyn as a no-brainer, except...
I just kept feeling this heart tug toward Arya. I had a huge rush crush on 'Debbie' the senior who I'd spent so much time with. I felt they were so sincere and real, and I had a total blast at each and every one of their parties. Plus they all seemed to have great senses of humor, which is crucial to me. By comparison, while the girls at Catelyn were all fun and friendly and great to talk to, I didn't get the same 'click' feeling when it came to sense of humor. Hard to explain, but in that area Arya felt like a better fit. But their house...was just so average. And I already felt like a loser for getting cut from my top houses. How could I pledge at a sorority whose physical house I also felt apologetic about?
Time soon ran out, and I hadn't yet made my decision. I kept wavering back and forth between Catelyn and Arya, and even made a Ben Franklin list - wrote down each house on a piece of paper and listed all the pros and cons of each. Still couldn't make up my mind.
I was looking at the blank pref form in despair when the Rho Chi knocked on my door and told me it was time to turn prefs in. Taking a deep breath, I quickly wrote a name, folded the paper and said a quick prayer that I'd made the right choice before I turned it in.
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