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I don't want this to sound harsh/lecturing, but you really need to be on your meds. Your doctors prescribe them for a reason-they will help regulate the chemical signals that are passed from nerve to nerve in your brain. The meds are to regulate those signals/block certian signals, etc so that you can function and the depression is less a damper on your life. My best friend just recently(well, almost a year ago) was diagnosed with bi-polar, and she has been taking her meds and now she is a totally different person. It takes a while for them to work-some are very toxic and have to be titrated slowly(that means they can only be increased very slowly) and so it may seem that they aren't working-but believe me, they will. I watched my friend go from bouncy/outgoing etc. to trying to commit suicide and back up to outgoing/functioning normally in her daily life (meaning she can go to work again, she sees friends again, she's not in bed crying all day, etc). Stick with your meds, they will kick in, and help you function!!
I agree with what everyone else has said so far about your sisters supporting you!! It may not seem that way, since you don't know them that well, but you just might be surprised! I wish you well with all of this-it's such a hard thing to live with-but pm me if you want to talk at all!!
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