[Kevin]

Very good advice here. If you're withdrawn due to depression and other mental health issues, it would be a rare, exceptional sister who would be equipped to even recognize what you're going through. While they may not have been much of a help, which is at least partially not true, because it seems you have a very close friend in your roommate, you really can't blame them.

As for gossip, etc., it doesn't sound like you personally have the desire in the next 8 weeks or so to do anything to change the culture of your chapter. That's a cultural issue best addressed with the support of your alumnae advisers who more than likely have been there/done that.

It sounds like the best thing to do right now is to focus on getting things right with yourself. Stop blaming other people, be responsible for you. Definitely continue in counseling. You also might what to get evaluated by a psychiatrist just to make sure there aren't any imbalance sort of issues.