[summer_gphib]

I agree with White Daisy. It would also help if you stopped playing the "what if" game. The fact is that you DIDN'T join another sorority, and you cannot join another NPC. EVER. Under any circumstances. So there is no use crying over it. You should be trying your best to deal with the situation at hand. Are all sisterhoods roses? NO. Every sisterhood has it's issues. Even the ones you are admiring have stuff going on and issues to resolve. Looking at your sisterhood from a negative point of view and using words like "most screwed up sisterhood on the face of the earth" is just making the problem worse. I'm truly sorry about your miscarriage, but you've got to pick up the pieces and see your own behavior has not helped the situation. YOU pulled away from the sisterhood. If you haven't even tried to talk to your sisters about the situation, how can they help? Go get a counselor and try some therapy. Your sisters are NOT therapists, and it sounds like that is what you need.