[ssagee]

I'm in a similar situation. I rushed at the beginning of the fall semester, mostly so that I could meet people because I'm an out of state student and didn't know anyone prior to coming. At first I was really excited about rush, but also a little apprehensive because I didn't know much about the greek system. At the end of rush, I got stuck with one bid from the single sorority that I tried to cut every round. I told myself that I would stick it out through bid day just to see if I would end up liking it. Of course, bid day was a blast, but anyone who has been through rush knows that the first week or two are a lot different than how the sorority is overall. I was enjoying it for a while, but was not meeting many people because most of the girls seemed to be in a lot of different cliques already. I was not a part of any of them. However, big little week rolled around and the spark was ignited again. I was so excited about my big that I thought everything was perfect. I stuck through initiation thinking that I would end up having a great time. Little did I know, my big, much like the first weeks of activity in the sorority, was a lot different than my first impression. My big and I never talk, and on the rare occasion that we do, it is incredibly awkward. Second semester dues are almost due, and I am realizing that it is not worth me paying a few thousand dollars a year to be a part of something that I really don't feel like I am a part of at all. The only problem is that I'm not exactly sure who to talk to about this. I can't talk to my big for obvious reasons and the few girls that I do know would not understand. I know someone on exec would be a good person, but which position deals with this sort of situation. And just so I'm sure, it is possible to drop out even after initiation right?